Finally... the tears broke down

I got so stressed up today.

My facial expressions are always transparent.

Somebody  noticed and even tried to make me spit it out.

I simply said no. I didn't want to discuss about it today because I'm afraid I might burst into tears.

I sat at my table.

Pondering.

Wondering.

Lots and lots of it.

Lost in my deep thoughts.

I rest my head on the table for a while with a hope that a short nap would erase the trouble in me a lil bit.

Suddenly a colleague came and patted me at the back and asked whether I'm okay or not.

Ooooohhh... I wish that person didn't do that just now.

I was trying to recollect myself at that time.

I didn't dare to open my eyes and made a quite nod.

Suddenly.... I slowly sobbed. harder and harder.

Till it hurts. I could feel that its started to choke me off.

But still I couldn't make myself stop!

Finally, I made my way to my car and sit in there for almost half an hour. (Luckily I was free at that time)

Had a small talk with Amie which helps a little and I decided to take the ablution.

And did whatever I need to do.

I felt more relaxed and calmer after that.

I could even smile as if nothing had happened before.

(though it shows from the swollen eyes of mine)

nota kaki: the tears is dropping while I'm typing this entry. fullstop.